character: distinguishing quality or qualities

i wonder if i ever had a character. sometimes, there are some things that ppl close to me like, and i just make myself believe that i like them too; those stuff that i used to hate, i'll take a second look at it; those that i already like, well, i'll basically swim in it. But as i ease off all these feelings, i found tt these preferences still stays.

surely, i have lost myself amid all this mess. now i really don't know what i m living for. now u tell me what im suppose to do then, if u r so smart... now, i juz shutup and shutdown.

meanwhile, mr tan is on a 2-wk holiday.. be back NEXT NEXT week.. totally ruined my study plan..